fbpx
CURRENTLY ON AIR ⇒
  • Highlights of the Days Programmes
    Tue, 10:05 pm - 4:00 am
    [ - ]

feedback@radioislam.org.za

Radio Islam Logo


((( Listen Live )))))
Radio Islam Logo


MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

Apr 24, 2021

Dad was still hospitalised, and there was still no change in his condition, but he was stable and that was a blessing in itself. I felt helpless, but I prayed for him constantly as I knew Allah was Merciful and provided healing. But I also needed more time with him as I wanted to tell him how much I loved him and to say I was sorry.

I talked about it to Fatima, and she reminded me “that we plan, but Allah is the best of planners.” I must be honest, that this was a concept that I struggle with. As someone who had been taught to plan for almost everything, it was difficult to relinquish control over one’s life, but I was trying hard. Unlearning a behaviour is difficult, to say the least, but I trust in Allah. At times, I am weak but turning to Allah gives me strength.

I felt overwhelmed by loneliness. “Fatima, come home, please. I need you.”, I mumbled into the phone, but as the words escaped, I knew I was being selfish. Fatima had Umme to take care of as well as her own responsibilities to deal with. I quickly apologised and explained to her how I felt. She soothed my fears and after a lovely chat, we said our goodbyes.

I sat thinking about Fatima and how she fulfilled her obligation to Umme, who had adopted her into her life ensuring she found love and acceptance. That made me think about my obligation to my parents. My parents had often talked about being put into a nursing home and even assisted suicide if they become burdensome for us. Here was Fatima, an example that our parents were our responsibility and not be abandoned in their old age nor be made to choose a haram method to find death.

Today my eemaan was at a low, and I was fighting hard to keep my head together. I prayed that this would not be another day when I would need to not only reassure others but harder to reassure myself.

It was a heavy burden to carry when you are questioned about your reasons for accepting the Deen or to explain to others why you had chosen Islam having led a life of freedom and choice. It was tiresome! Can people not accept that we grow, we change, we evolve.

Allah has chosen and guided me and there will be days when I struggle, but I have to keep striving. I remember the hadith — Abu Huraira reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Take up good deeds only as much as you are able, for the best deeds are those done regularly even if they are few.”

During madrassah, I could barely concentrate and as the class was about to end, I requested a meeting with Muallimah as I needed advice. As soon as I heard her gentle voice, I burst into tears and explained that I was afraid I was going to lose my father.

She let me cry until I had no tears left and then slowly and reassuringly explained to me that to Allah we belong, and it is to Him that we return. “Sam, worrying about “what if’s” will not change a thing. “Sam, worrying about “what if’s” will not change a thing. Trust in Allah as He is Al Muhayeeh He gives life and cure to whom He wishes, But Allah is also Al Mumeetu, the Giver of death. We were all promised death, but as a believer, we should understand that this world is only a temporary stop in our journey.“

Her words may have not been kind or welcoming, but they brought comfort and understanding. “Ya Rabb, guide me to good and have mercy on me for being weak.”, I prayed.

ADVERTISE HERE

Prime Spot!!!

Contact:
advertisingadmin@radioislam.co.za 

Related Articles

MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

This morning the atmosphere was one joy tinged with sorrow. Ramadan had come to an end, and it was the morning of Eid-ul-Fitr. As we prepared to pray Fajr, a sense of quiet calm and serenity seemed to fill the air as the feeling of contentment fell over me....

read more
MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

Today Madrassa was thought-provoking; Muallimah spoke about dhikr, something I love to do when I am walking, cooking and especially when I suffer bouts of anxiety. It' is my way of understanding that Allah is Al-Jaleelu, The Majestic. Muallimah touched on how Allah...

read more
MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

It's been two days since Mark attacked me, and my bruised eye looked horrible. The swelling had subsided, but my eye was still mostly shut. We had to go to work today, and I was dreading it because I knew I would have to put up with the stares and endless questions....

read more
MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

Mark decided to move back in with Mum, and that was my cue to leave, although it was with a heavy heart and much concern. I worried that Mark would nag Mum to death! My emotions were like a see-saw as I tried to write in my journal. A part of me wanted to stay with...

read more
MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

It is the twenty-third day of Ramadan! Umme and I were discussing how quickly the days had flown. As I shared with her that I felt I had done too little regarding my lessons and ibadaah, Umme smiled at me and squeezed my shoulders. “You can never do too little or too...

read more
MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

MUSLIMAH NAVIGATING ISLAM

No one ever tells you that getting back into a routine after your haidh is immensely difficult, particularly the fasting. Some say that females are blessed as they get a reprieve. Well, if they haven't walked in our shoes, then they would have no idea of the...

read more

Subscribe to our Newsletter

0 Comments

Submit a Comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *